A letter to myself.

Dear myself, I’m sorry for those wasted years. We shouldn’t come this far. I should have stop you from the very beginning. Lets stop here then. And may we find peace that we have been longing for. Long enough... *sigh

It’s time to rest I guess.  Shall we? *smile

The Past

Assalamualaikum.

It must have been hurt so much that when you wish to forget all the bad memories, you're happen to forget all the good moments as well. Can't help it.

It is good to be able to give up. Not everything is achievable. Sometimes, accepting the truth is unbearable. But you'll find a time when you happen to realize that you did overcome everything. It's just a matter of time.

Now, it's like given a second chance. To start all over again. To do things correctly. This time, brace yourself and don't break into pieces again.

Sincerely; me.  :))

Adab berkata dalam berkawan?

Assalamualaikum.

Membaca apa yg ditulisnya membuatkn aku tersentak. Meluahkan pendapat itu perlu. Tapi tidak perlu keras intonasinya. Kami tak buta akal dan hati utk memahami. Jangan terlalu sembarangan, hanya kerana emosi kacau kau seorang. Jaga-jaga bila bersuara. Mungkin kata kau ada benarnya. Tp perindahkan kalam bicara. Agar tidak menyakiti hati-hati yg mendengarnya.

Well basically rasa tersentap bila baca luahan hati seorang kawan. It's not like dia seorang yang susah dan rasa pressure bila uruskan program. Well, to think about it, programme manager dan assistant programme manager lagi pressure.

Tapi diorang tak kecoh pun? Seriously don't understand a kind of person mcm ni yg selfish terlebih. Org lain punya sgla penat lelah pengorbanan lagi la byk. Tapi biasanya org yg bt keje paling sikit la yg suka duk kecoh. Kan? Kalau ada rasa nak ungkit segala jasa yg tak seberapa tu, lain kali mohon jgn involvekan diri. Senangkan? Kalau awk takleh komited, jgn pegang tanggungjawab yg org amanahkan.

Bicara dr tulus hati. Bye.

Comeback Post?

Assalamualaikum. It has been a while since the last time i posted here. Busy? Haha. Kinda. This will be my first  post in this year. Hehe. I miss writing. That's why i return, i guess. Haha. Ok whatever.

Anyway, will get back here after i get enough energy. Need to sleep now. :p

Bye. :)

Change or adapt ?

Assalamualaikum.

“CHANGE IT OR GET ADAPT TO IT”

Those were words that I learnt when I was 19 years old. I was in my matriculation time, still blurred about the course that I should take, still blurred with what I want to be in the future. It was said by my main campus’s Deputy Dean Student Affairs, Bro Z. He was already in his 50’s, a wise man with wise words.

I keep holding on to those words all this time. Reminds myself that I can’t change everything. Well, not everything can be change according to your will.

No matter how much it hurts, the pain will soon cured once you get adapt to it.

Don’t get me wrong. “CHANGE IT OR GET ADAPT TO IT” doesn’t mean that you have to just go on with the flow and accept everything that you have. No, it is not neccessarily that. It is also doesn’t mean that you have to stop fighting for your own needs. No, it isn’t.

You have to fight for your own will. Go on. Till you reach your limit. Then by that time you’ll notice whether it is something that you can change or the one that you have to adapt to it instead.

CHANGES, is not something that can be easily accepted by most of the people.

Sometimes when the fact obviously shows that it cannot be changed, tell yourself to slowly learn to adapt to it. You are not giving up, it just you are learning to accept the truth and stop lying to yourself that there are still hopes. If miracle happens, be grateful to Allah. But if the situation remain the same, be grateful to Allah as well. He won’t put you in such a test if he think you are uncapable to carry it.

Keep smiling. And focus for the future ahead. Don’t ever stop praying. May whatever test that we are going through keep us always in the firm faith to Allah. Amin. J